you

"does she dream of me? i dream of her. the nights away from her she's all that's in my head."
-asthma



i can't live without you
i can't stand that you don't love me
i don't want to be without you
i don't want anything but you
i just wanted your unconditional love
i will not be able to deal with you moving on
i will not be able to forget about you
i will never stop loving you
i meant everything i ever said to you
everything about how when i'm not with you i feel empty
i believed everything that came out of your mouth
i believed you and i trusted you
all those plans and those images about the future
i fucking never doubted any of it
i believed you when you said you wanted me to be the one
but you didn't mean it

i just want to die of heartbreak and get it over with
i can't fucking breathe, i don't want to
i hope i die in my sleep tonight
i don't want to be without you
i physically can't function
you promised we'd be happy together forever

i ate it all up
now i can't stop crying
and i'm considering peeling my skin open and ripping out my veins
why didn't you just tell me in the beginning that you were just saying that
that there was no meaning behind it that they were just nice things to say

fuck fuck fuck everything
i don't want it
i don't want anything
nothing fucking matters
nothing is anything
every second i spend apart from you, my chest is in pain
fuck, why couldn't you just love me.