patience.

"the days are growing long and i begin to miss your song."

sooo... why can't i feel anything for anyone but him?
my gut instinct is guiding me, but everything around me points otherwise.


i guess patience is key
but i've almost forgotten what beautiful shade of blue his eyes are.


i miss you.

ajlfkjslkjljgldhjlafsd i don't know what i'm doing
like i feel like i'm hyping myself up.
fuck.


if you had come back already, i wouldn't feel this way.


i feel a little floaty and giddy :)
i'm just going to go with the flowwww.
tee hee, i like someone.

>:O

I KNOW WHAT I WANTTTT.


to be happy.
the end.

corny poem to you

your words are the soundtrack in my head
and i never really thought about what you said
you warned me that if i leaned too far i'd fall
but if i did fall, it'd be you who i'd call

and i'd be wrapped in your strong arms
i'd never feel all the hurt or the harms
said you would protect me from anything
because i was your queen and you were my king.

we wrapped ourselves in love and passion,
our hearts connected in an orderly fashion.
your eyes have been the sunshine all this while
and the lovely moon is just my smile.

your big heart is beautiful, good, and pure
but now who knows what it must endure
because you fell for the sneaky tongue
and on the deception of strange women you hung

now your lovely voice is getting soft
and even lies your mouth will cough
just to help you sleep on this night
and the feeling of emptiness that you try to fight

the laughing and touching soon will just fade
and shame will cover the sheets where you laid
because happiness doesn't come easy no more
and the girl that you're sleeping with is just but a ******

i still remember the hours of sweet laughter
planning what we'd do tomorrow and the day after
you'd ask me what ring i'd want on the big day
i'd tell you that "i do" is what i would say.

listening to songs that reminded us of us
because when we weren't together it was just a fuss
so we grew together and our hearts combined
living and breathing each other's soul and mind

no one else knows how your soul tastes but me
your plans and your dreams are the things i did see
so when you lie down and feel that space in your chest
just remember how snugly my head fit in there best.

<3

i'll always love you.

If there's a tomorrow when we're not together,
there's something you must always remember.
You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem,
and smarter than you think. But the most important
thing is even if we're apart, I'll always be with you.
- Winnie the Pooh



i'll always love you.

Thank you, God

Trials into Blessings
from http://members.tripod.com/BC_StarFire/blessing.html

I just came unto a valley

One like I've never been before
I keep searching for a way out
Seems like padlocks are on the door
Oh, there must be another sunrise
Another sunset that I'll see
GOD will make this trial a blessing
That's the love HE has for me

GOD will make this trial a blessing
Though it sends me to my knees
Though my tears flow like a river
Yet in HIM there's sweet relief
There's no need to get discouraged
There's no need to talk defeat
GOD will make this trial a blessing
And the whole wide world will see

I was not the first one
To come into this place
You see every child of GOD
This test he must face
It is here that GOD will mold you
And make you what you ought to be
GOD will make this trial a blessing
Just be patient, you will see...

Now I'm standing on the mountain
Looking back I can see
When I was in that lowest valley
HIS strong hand was leading me
For it's good to see the sunshine
And to taste sweet victory
GOD has made this trial a blessing
Oh the grace HE gives to me

dear you,

wow, almost two months.
but it's not nearly over, babe.

one week and a half ago you told me you loved me, you miss me, you want to marry me, and that we were going to work things out.
but a couple days later you said you didn't want to anymore because you heard some lies about me.

i'm patient, boy. make up your mind soon though.

i love you.


sincerely,
emily